Emerge 2018 [Part i]

Elevation Worship – Do it Again

Your promise still stands
Great is Your faithfulness, faithfulness
I’m still in Your hands
This is my confidence, You never failed me yet

I’ve seen You move, come move the mountains
And I believe, I’ll see You do it again
You made a way, where there was no way
And I believe, I’ll see You do it again


This weekend was a spectacular surprise. It was my first time attending our University Christian Ministry’s retreat. The sheer number of undergraduates gathered under one roof was pretty awesome. Seeing students of all ages, ethnicities, disciplines – showed me how God’s love has been able to grow to a faith that truly encompasses any son or daughter encountered.

There was an identity issue. We discussed topics on labels given to us, which internalize and take hold on us as we go about our lives. Maybe we wish we could just throw down those labels and walk away – without a label, without a history. God (as always), loves us so much. He gave us this blessing of being nameless and sinless when He sent us the one and only Jesus. Jesus, the only human who ever traversed this earth as sinless, bore the sins of this world in hopes of allowing us, every single one of us (a sinner), to reconcile and foster a relationship with our Father.

God is able to do the impossible. He showed me this a couple years back. He defies the law of human physics and impossibility, to save lives – both physically, mentally, emotionally. He was there when the world may have turned against you. He is here as you take that breath, followed by another. He will be here tomorrow when you wake up and marvel at the beauty of life, of your home, of your loved ones.

There is much to be grateful to God for. This weekend marks the beginning of what I hope to continue be a fire-igniting relationship with Him. Because if I do not live for Him, whom else would I be living for?


To Love Like Him

If anything, it should make us fight for it, it should make us even more stubborn because we know that if the tables were turned, we would want that kind of love, we would want kind hearts and vulnerable souls and honest feelings. And it’s only fair to give what we want to receive — no matter what the outcome may be.


Thankful for the God who was, who is, and always will be there for me. Though the season seems to be picking up, I’m seemingly getting sparks of passion for my work. Having strived for this feeling for the longest of time and making uncertain decisions within chaotic periods, it’s good to feel the calm slowly subsiding in.

Whenever one looks at the end, they do not realize that there are many steps that take one from 1, to 100. The many hands, smiles, and laughter that accumulate as wisps of fresh air when the going gets tough. The people whom appear out of thin air, and make an impact in one’s life, without warning.

I thank God for His presence in my life. And to make Him proud, the little steps I take, I’ll keep taking them, for His glory.

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You were someone that I’ve never forgotten. Ever, in the midst of life’s hustle and bustle. You always managed to swim to the forefront of my thoughts, my dreams, my worries.

You are someone whom I look up to, both physically, mentally, and emotionally. I wanted you, as much as the little ones look forward to meeting Santa Claus and Mrs. Claus, on Christmas Eve. I wanted you, more than many of the other prayers I’ve hunted for in my life. I wanted you, more than I had looked forward to that first trickle of snow; that first snowfall of each season.

Thankful for the time we spend together. Me, just a bit more interesting than you. And you, a bit more timid and careful than I can ever be. The words we exchange, I won’t reminiscence on. There’s too much in life to achieve, attain, surpass, and ultimately – to take those steps, it requires concentrated focus.

I once placed my ambition on you. Wanting to be the one beside you, walking down those halls and those steps.

南山南 – 如果天黑之前来得及




It’s been a while since I last took up this pen.

I had wanted to wait a bit before I decided on the course of action.

There’s this fence that is often built around one. The fence initially does not exist. There was no reason for this structure to be built. It is through the experiences and events that take place, where one sees a fence slowly take shape.

At first, it may have been just a sliver of inches; similar to the newly grown grass that takes bloom as Spring descends. It grows steady and in color. Green as can be, as it slowly takes on a life of it’s own. Starting out fresh in scent; with it sparkling in the sun because of it’s unfamiliarity.

As more events take place, the height ascends. At times slower than the rest – knowingly boundaries have to be built, but only a millisecond at a time. Other times, those events wreck havoc, and the height skyrockets. The grass begins wilting, but continues it’s ascent.

Over time, this fence changes. It had started as grass, easy to cut; easy to maintain. But one day, this grass fades, and wooden boards take it’s place. Like a tree’s trunk, it is solid and without waver. It stands strong against the winds and waves. The oak becoming aged, but the stability stronger. It does not ever change shape, because there is not much that erodes the core of it’s base. It remains as is, a ring around that one.

Listening to the thoughts of others makes it obvious how cautious or carefree one truly is. There are some whom are filled with cheerful laughter, spontaneous interactions, and above all – radiance in knowing the grace of this world and it’s beauty.

Then there are the others.

Those whom had seen much before the rest of us. They have experienced the lows and the highs (though not as frequent). Their thoughts are clear as mud. Not easily influenced as they hold onto the crux of their soul; seemingly defined from a delicate age, and crafted through the hands of others.

Learn to be positive, they say.

What if that was never a trait to be encompassed by that one?


You’ve only one life to live, why make it as unhappy as you do?


Without You

Taken as an excerpt from the one who feels lost amongst all

Have you ever had that feeling where you are so fixated on one object, you lose motivation to think about anything else?

That’s consumption done right.

There’s no need for desire of anything else. Your thoughts are consumed. You wish you could think about any or everything else; it’s seemingly locked down though. Everything suddenly revolves around this one.

Drained. Tired. Ineffectually helpless.

This is a new feeling for me.
Is this another one of those experiences where you overcome it and become a
stronger person?

Through the fire
I’ll persevere
I won’t submit to any fear
Where I’ll go you’ve been before
All my trust is in you Lord

Hold me close, Lord. Keep me sane.

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All I need is you, Lord. Let me cling onto you as desperately as I may this week.


Remember who you found among those winding streets and chilly frosts of air that stemmed from your chuckles as you gasped and laughed. Remember who you decided to leave behind – not by choice, but by another taking the reins for you. Remember.

Stray far from that person who used to be overtaken by so many fears and anxiety. Forget those that wrapped their hands around your lungs. Persevere. Strive. Smile. Move forward. No, even run.

Jump and feel those wings lift you higher and higher up. Away from that which bound you before and realize you aren’t the same; and will never be again. Because you chose our Father. You choose, everyday – to let Him lead your every step. There is certainty in what He decides, and that is where your calming heart is planted.

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Embrace You • Embrace God

For this very reason, make every effort to add to your faith goodness; and to goodness, knowledge; and to knowledge, self-control; and to self-control, perseverance; and to perseverance, godliness; and to godliness, mutual affection; and to mutual affection, love. For if you possess these qualities in increasing measure, they will keep you from being ineffective and unproductive in your knowledge of our Lord Jesus Christ.

2 Peter 1:5-8

These past few months were filled with decisions, love, worries, happiness, growth, joy, and most of all- understanding. I am thankful for that in which I was allowed to contribute my time to, the people in which I have come to know much more of, and especially: the relationships I have seen grow and strengthen. Many times, one does not step back to look through the objective lens at those around us. What if we were not one of this church? What if we did not come to this city; did not live to this time. Would the friendships and trust that exist today- still co-exist?

I always look up to those in whom I see aspiration. Their motivation to love and care in putting the needs of others ahead of their own is a wholistic approach in incorporating that in which they hold important and close to their heart. Unconditional love was and is never an easy trait to encompass in all daily interactions. How easy is it to say that someone is important to you, but when it is most important, do you truly act out your intentions?

I see you. The girl who grew from a child in this family we all call our own. This family in which your hair has grown and been shortened, in accordance with the many years you add onto your life, one by one. The confidence you have achieved and the love you so delicately sprinkle into each aspect in which you touch- though maybe only those close to you may realize the commitment you hold yourself on; being a daughter, sister, lover, and above all- a leader. Someone who others look upon for guidance, laughs, creativity, a hand, an arm. You bubble with the cheerfulness of someone who has seen and known much; though your age may be young + with much to learn. You have the capacity to grow and re-open boundaries that the traditions have bound in place. You devote time in places where others may overlook because they simply forget to acknowledge the importance of Him. So I thank you. For that which you have shown me, through your grace, your love, and most of all- your voice. It was an honour to serve alongside someone in which I have come to cherish dearly in the masses that we have grown to be a part of.

The other one. Someone whose presence will surely be missed. You and my other favourite remain a stronghold in this place in which we call our family. Familial relationships are not bound by blood anymore but by faith. In faith we have accepted that our Father is our one true God. By faith we realize the importance of each other. Through witnessing your faith, I realize that though uncertainty may latch itself onto our very footsteps, if we cling even more strongly onto our Father, we will overcome those dark times to become someone who is stronger still. Times in which we do not wholly see the way in front of us; through Him we see His way and His will.

I had once believed that our life was meant to live and achieve total happiness. In our family, our friendships, our life and career- if we are able to try our best and be at the top: we will be happy. Content in what we have, joyous in our accomplishments, ecstatic in knowing our path is so clearly drawn, like footprints to step into within the sand. How is it that I have evolved from the mentality of striving for happiness to understanding true happiness will never be found solely through one’s own desires? Through aligning personal longing with God’s will, do we actually hope for and find purpose in which He has prepared for us all along.

In the most quiet of times, away from all distractions and chatter, can I hear His voice. Only is it when I forget about all the lists filled with never-ending tasks can I ask for discernment in my next steps.

I hope that for every decision I embark on, I will turn to our Father first. Turning away from asking him whether this decision will make me happy, to if He is happy and satisfied with my choice in this matter. For when He is happy with what I hope to achieve, will only I be also happy in taking that step.