Today was a day worth remembering, and also one as a reminder.
Thanks to God that I am able to meet so many people in this life, to have conversations with them I would not if I had not managed to live past that July of 2013.
I often think of living on borrowed time. Time that I was granted out of God’s grace for me. As my Core leader had shared: God had saved me through mercy, but also out of His love for me. He will be there through any and everything that I encounter in the future; the obstacles that I think are too big for me to handle and the little details I overlook, from time to time.
I contemplated a lot today. Whether I should leave. Whether I was being silly waiting. Whether I was being unreasonable due to all the uncertainty that seemed to surround him. But I held on, because I believed that it was something worth fighting for. And though it was ultimately bittersweet on my part, I am glad that I did.
It was something where I was able to realize if not for, I would not know the answer that I was searching so long for. Sometimes answers are deduced. Sometimes they are so clearly shown. And other times they appear because we force them to appear.
Being by your side was something of a delight. I think I had missed the feeling of being with someone of my background. Where I could try to improve my ability, and also learn more about you at the same time. The you that had grown up in a different province and different country halfway around the world. The you that had different experiences in terms of your attitude towards academics, towards someone whom you had adored in the past, and ultimately, your outlook on life now. You were someone that was very mature. Your perspective outgrew that which I was accustomed to. You were upfront, blunt, and also careful with your confrontations, which I saw a part of myself in. You are someone who I really believe can make someone like her, as happy as you’d like to.
Thanks to God for this weight that was lifted off my chest. So that I could continue to look forward. Not only in the realm of friendships, but also in the belief that someone amazing will come to show themselves, and I will come to walk alongside him – in faith for our Father.
December 16 was a day I had looked very forward to. But today after it had ended, I realized that something other than that which I had hoped for, happened – which I am also glad for. I wish you the best in the future. I believe you will encounter great souls, similar to yours. You will come to lift your head with happiness, in the midst of someone as comfortable as yourself.
宋昊然 ： 你還是一位好人。你教了我很多我之前沒看到的，還有很誠實的分享你的經歷。希望你不會再為她難過。你有你的優點還有夢想，也很吸引別人來欣賞。